Paranoia

Go slow

2011-08-07T23:44:00.000+08:00

Some photos to keep this blog going. The rest are in my camera which I am too lazy to bring home from Wil's house. Maybe next week.

On a side note, I need to go shopping so badly. My shopping list just gets longer by the day. Sigh life still sucks.

You pick a colour and I sing it for you

2011-06-26T04:59:00.001+08:00

After being such a lazy ass for sucha long time...hi I'm back!!

Shall start with wayyyyyy overdue photos from Wilson's 21st birthday party.

Day 1 (the party):

Shirley went earlier with me and these are SOME of the party stuff we had to lug to city hall then Sentosa. Gave up halfway and called C for help. Our saikang for the day heh heh.

Checked in and started decorating the place. It was such a chore.. Lucky S was there with me. So much to do! It was nice having the whole room to ourselves tho ^^

Whoop, finally done!!

Miscellaneous stuff after showering and doing our makeup~

The king of the day arrived and behaved like a king, sigh

So poor thing uh? I suffered the same fate fml.

Finally passed him the bday surprise gift I got him. Was lying to him the whole time that the bulky thing is some furniture which belonged to another friend who's gna move house?? LOL. He believed it anyway. Probably cuz I gave him a fake present before that to make it all convincing. *proud of self*

Happy kid alr lor. (And suddenly I exist.)

JJ gave him a ps3 game. We kinda...collaborated. And all the while he kept whispering and asking me when I'm gna give Wil the present so that he can give him his, haha!

Step yi ge..

Pinata time~~ (which failed badly lol)

Finished pulling out all the strings but the pinata still didn't break -______-

Seh ka.

Day 2:

Woke up very early the next morning and decided we shall visit the hotel gym and pool.

Had the whole gym to ourselves~

After swimming we pretended to be tourists and toured around the whole place, heheheh.

Wil looks like he has mascara/fake lashes on in this pix, hahhaha

Dinner time! Had our dindin at Palio which was pretty good.

We only realised that I've forgotten to take photos of the food while we were eating halfway. Well they took years to serve us and we were starving.

Desserts! Yumyum..

We had just enough vouchers to pay for everything so technically our meal was free ^^

Day 3:

Time to check out :(

Hope you enjoyed your 21st! ♡

So I'm saving all my secrets for a deaf man

2011-03-10T04:23:00.002+08:00

"They say we only run from the things that truly scare us."

Just so you know

2011-03-10T03:49:00.000+08:00

So..I haven't been updating this space lately and I'm thinking if I should just close down this blog. Afterall I'm still more comfortable in having a private blog. But yeah..we'll see how things go.

Anyway. The horrible exam period's over..yep last minute mugging and cramming of notes into my brain's finally over. I can finally get as much sleep as I want to now. So all's good, I..guess? Hmm. Right, maybe not. Nevermind that, here's some photos from lw's 18th birthday:

I think I actually have more photos. But I'd have to dig for them. Till then.

Happy CNY!

2011-02-08T00:40:00.000+08:00

Short update on my cny.. Headed off to my gramp's place in the evening on the first day. Mahjong session with my cuzzies. We are a bunch of noobs srsly..hahaha but it was so much fun nonetheless.

Yupxxs dyed my hair red for cny tho it's not obvious in the pix.

Later on in the night, went off to Wil's gramp's place and watched them gamble. I don't know why my family doesn't gamble?? Every year we just chill on the couch and watch tv. This year we played mahjong but no money involved, whuttt..

My CNY nails!

(Sorry for the lack of photos, I can't be bothered to bring my cam out.)

Second day of cny, woke up super early and dad drove us to malaysia to visit my granny again. Fucking sad to see her only able to lie on bed on cny.. Really pains all of us. Life is so horrible.

Third day..went visiting with Wil's family. (My family doesn't have the habit of visiting either, why uh??) Then went off to JJ's house in the night for steamboat and gambling session. Lady luck was with us that day! Me and wil won quite alot ^^ whooooop~

Ok so overall..I got very little angbaos but that's fine, I'm used to it already..but everyday's pretty much the same. I love cny the most but it's so boring..sigh. What happened to the happy times. Gettin so sick of life.

Lost my mind for a week

2011-01-29T06:00:00.001+08:00

Since I'm waiting for time to pass so I can cab over to Wil's house, shall take this time to update a bit. Spent our afternoon lazing around at the beach some time ago.

Mehhhh, I'm running late. Will try to update a proper post soon! HAHA bye, have a nice weekend everybordieeee~! ^^

Let's pretend we're bunny rabbits

2011-01-18T02:16:00.000+08:00

Truckload of photos coming up soon, x.

2011

2011-01-17T03:15:00.000+08:00

I'M BACK! I know this is a little too late but happy new year and hope you guys had a wonderful xmas. Spent white christmas in Korea, came back on the 1st and started off the year pretty badly. It's really not gonna be a good year for the rooster. Yupx, January 17 and I've lost all faith in 2011 :)

2010..

1) Got a job at The Icing Room with Lammy. I will actually enjoy my time there if not for some people.

2) Went to Genting with my fav boy & co. and had a blast there. (I don't wanna come back!)

3) Started school in TP. Became quite depressed cuz I had to get to know people all over again.

4) Luckily I managed to meet awesome people like Ivy, Van, Jan, Shili etc..

5) Got sick and bored of school. I buy more MCs than I buy dinner. K I KID (but almost there :S).

6) Spent 24/7 minus school time with the boy cuz he was gonna be the botak king :'(

7) Weekly Starbucks chillin', random meetups and crazy late night conversations w my hi5 babies.

7) Still lovin Charlene and hi5 as much as ever.

8) Paternal grandma got hospitalized and the sight of her got me tearing uncontrollably. Life..

9) Some things changed. And stayed the same till now.

10) I changed. And you probably didn't realize.

11) As usual, got sick of all the hurt and disappointment life brings.

New Year Resolutions..

1) Visit my grandmas whenever I can.

2) What's in the mind/heart stays there. (Most of the time at least.)

3) Do my part, and if I don't get what I deserve in return,

4) Just let things be.

5) Fight while I still can.

Bring it on, 2011.

SALES SALES SALES

2010-12-09T21:34:00.001+08:00

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More coming up soon, x

Helena

2010-11-01T06:04:00.003+08:00

Haihaihai. Some overdue photos which I finally finished editing. Whooop, like finally!

(Omg I just realised it's freakin November already?)

Had an early halloween celebration this year. Dressed up as a bunny! Ok not really actually..I just went into the costume shop with Wil and we eached grabbed a few accessories and stuff and left cuz the weather was so mutherfking hot and there isn't any aircon in the shop. Pretty dumb, no? How do people even have the mood to try out the costumes under such humid condition? Anyway, pixxxxx:

My favvvv!!! Yumyumx..

18/10/2010:

♥♥

Random Saturday night where we watched paranormal activity 2.. When the show ended I was kinda like 'wtf why so lame' but after I reached Wil's crib later that night I got scared wtfxxxx I kept thinking there's some demon or whtevr around me and will kill me by cracking my neck etc when I'm not looking HAHA retarded I know.. Pix!!:

That's all for now..can't be bothered to edit the other photos yet. Soon I guess. Time for bed, havin a really bad headache and there's school later, SIGHHHH. Nights, xxx

Nearby town

2010-10-29T05:27:00.004+08:00

Woookay...finally an update after so long. Some very overdue photos which I abandoned for long enough.

Went to USS on a random Thursday..was a super last minute decision hhaha. Fun but very sad that the roller coaster ride's still closed :(

The chocolates Wil surprised me with. We were at candylicious and he suddenly went missing in the huge shop so I was like wtf and went to look for him and saw him standing in the queue with this box of chocolates in his hand. Then I turned to look at him and he gave me the silliest smile, hahha so cute <3

Hhahhaha btw why Wil's face so jiao one uh? Damn entertaining when I edit the photos..cannot tank. And speaking of editing photos I just remembered I still got a few more batches of photos to edit..the thought of it makes me ZZZ.

On a totally random note, I really really wanna go on a trip man..anywhere will do just let me get the hell outta Sg.

Life please get better already, x.

17fights

2010-10-20T02:22:00.000+08:00

Seriously, who would be willing to do this?

Life can't be that good.

I love tumblr. I love how I can express myself so much over there compared to this space.

For the last time

2010-10-08T04:13:00.000+08:00

Folder

2010-09-30T02:38:00.004+08:00

Sorry but I'm feeling weird :S Goodnight pies, I hope my new skincare products turn out good!

Would you know where to find me?

2010-09-28T03:24:00.000+08:00

Hai hai cutie piex.

Life iz so boringggg~ The only thing I look forward to in life right now is the weekends. So. Sad.

Anyway..last Saturday at Scape:

Can't wait for this Saturday btw!! It's the start of Wil's one week holiday so yaynezzzz, get to see him everyday ^^ But I doubt we'll be going overseas anymore, and it's all my fault :< Sighhhh and thinking what we can do in Sg is giving me a headache. Most boring place EVER, tskkkk

On a random note, I know I've said it too many times before be it here or on my twitter but, life is so fragile. Really too fragile. Sometimes even thinking of what tomorrow will bring scares me. I've always believed that I'm mentally strong, but as days pass me by, I realize all the while I'm wrong. I'm only strong on the outside. That happens to many of us, no? Putting up a strong front and one fine day we'll finally not be able to stand all the emotions that are eating us up inside and we start to breakdown way easier than others, 'cept that we don't allow anyone to see it.

Man..this is one reason why I hate writing wordy posts. It will eventually become emotional. I should just stick to picture posts.

Paper lanterns

2010-09-27T06:38:00.002+08:00

Lantern festival this year sucked. Well to me that is. Hope everyone else enjoyed the day, x.

Time will tell

2010-09-20T03:54:00.000+08:00

I very much want to have a proper post but the time now is 0323 and I have got work later so I guess it'd be better if I head to bed like now. Two more days of backache and I'm done. Then it'll be Wednesday which is lantern festival if I'm not wrong? Gna be a boring one cuz Wil will be stuck in camp, oh sigh.

Time for bed, xx.

What if you wasted love

2010-09-14T03:57:00.003+08:00

(Sorry but I behave like that normally :S)

Meowwwwwx, exams are overrrrr!!

You don't know how glad I am. I can finally find time to go shopping ^^

So the holidays are here and Wil and I might be going on a vacation! Bali probably. CAN'T WAIT. Hafta go down to the travel agency soon. Need a getaway so badly.

By the way my fringe... BIG BIG SIGH. I cut them myself cuz as usual, I had issues with my hair and find the need to do something to it. Hhahaha I should stop messing around with my hair!! Pfft...

What you see is not what you get

2010-09-13T03:40:00.001+08:00

A few days back I dug out all my baby photos and I can't help feeling sad. Because I started thinking of all the things in my life. Every fucking thing. I think a lot. Sometimes too much.. And no one has a clue of all the ongoing chaos in my mind and heart I swear.

@The Studio

2010-09-06T23:54:00.000+08:00

In ruins

2010-09-01T02:32:00.016+08:00

I want someone I can go to, someone I can tell my secrets to, someone who won’t judge me for the mistakes I’ve made, for the mistakes I will continue to make. I want someone who understands. I want someone who hears, not just listens. I want someone who believes me. I want someone who says good night to me, and prays to god they get the chance to say good morning. I want someone who knows my quirks. I want someone who will wipe my tears away. I want someone who gladly accepts my insecurities and doesn’t mind reassuring me again and again, someone who will do anything just to make me feel better. I want someone who will want to get rid of all my fears. I want someone who doesn't bear to break my heart. I want someone who needs me. I want someone who will never give up on me, someone who sincerely wants to be there for me forever. I want someone who accepts me for who I am, someone who doesn't try to change me.
I want someone who truly loves me, the real me.

May September be a better month, x.
But on a happier note, I will be collecting the photoshoot's photos with chingalingling later, then on Thursday I can finally meet Wil! How awesome.

Winkle Flea

2010-08-29T23:32:00.001+08:00

Ok so finally, pictures from the Winkle Flea!!

Shared a booth with my babygirls and lugged luggage and boxes of clothes all the way to St. James. Managed to get rid of a few pieces but still not enough! Have to attend more fleas and get rid of more of them already. Need the moolah to buy new clothes~~ Fund me fund me.

Anyway, I really need to discipline myself and get down to studying. Haven't started shit when exams are next week. Helppppp, I hate exams. I wanna go to design school >:(

Eye share toe

2010-08-28T23:54:00.000+08:00

Home from a photoshoot at The Studio! Yes the studio's called The Studio.

Headed to town with my babies without any make up at all. Very brave uh hhhaha. Before the photoshoot they did our make up and styled our hair aaaaaaand I requested for curls! Finally got to try it because I am an epic failure in curling my hair. But the make up was disappointing cuz I haaaaaate putting eyeshadow. The most I'll go will be black or dark grey ones but they insisted the colour they chose for me is nice so, oh well, I gave in. Morever my eye makeup was not done evenly! So retarded la I had to touch it up myself, pfft.

But anyway, the overall photoshoot was so fun! Love all the photos even though I look stupid in most of them. SBF(S) had some solo King shots, which were seriously pretty awesome, because we set him up heh heh but I think he secretly loves them please.Will post them when we receive the photos ^^ Bought all of them at $290 wtfxzx.

Got back to our homely place after that where we had supper before looping home with my SBF and realising that his SBFLove for me is only worth 6.60, FHL. Yeah his, not mine cause idk why.

Sorry for the wordy post I today iz haz da mood to talk alot of rubbish so yeah..

Winkle Flea's pictures will be up soon I promise!

Whaddapuck

2010-08-28T04:31:00.002+08:00

This is madness. How could the guy be so freakin' heartless?! Sometimes I don't understand how some people can let anger take over them SO much. And what also puzzles me is how come no fucking one even stopped him at all. How crazy can he get if everyone stepped up and stopped him together?

But anyway, sign the petition people!!!!

I hope karma bites him right in the ass. Fag.

I'm on a horse

2010-08-25T20:07:00.001+08:00

Other than the photo that shows all her fats, which she untagged (HAHA), this is the only funny thing now.

Vows

2010-08-24T05:59:00.004+08:00

I know many of you have read this before, but I just feel the need to share this.

***

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into our bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that every day for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door every morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife's divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind... I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.
My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push through with the divorce. At least, in the eyes of our son, I'm a loving husband....

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you.

If you do, you just might save a marriage.
Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.

A CHRIST-CENTERED MARRIAGE IS A MARRIAGE THAT IS SURE TO LAST A LIFETIME.

So then, they are no longer two but one flesh. Therefore what God has joined together, let not man separate. Matthew 19:6.

By Stephanie Halmilton

***

Life is so sad isn't it. The person you have been loving, living with and depending on can leave you any time. Just any time. It's so unpredictable. What happened to the love that was once so strong? What happened to the promises made? What happened to the things they had gone through to come so far? Everything can be destroyed by one's fickleness.

And people tend to get sick of the ones they face every single day that they find the need to go for something newer, fresher. Is it human nature? To not treasure your loved ones and not know the importance of them in your life until you lose them.

Sometimes life can be so fragile it scares me to even think of the future.

Watching planes

2010-08-23T02:04:00.000+08:00

Stayover at my place the other day. Painted my nails together which turned out awesome. Loving it.

4u4e

2010-08-18T23:18:00.000+08:00

TIBI. IN OMNE TEMPUS

Will the voices ever set me free

2010-08-13T02:54:00.000+08:00

Painted by numbers

2010-08-11T03:35:00.002+08:00

Finally an update!

Headed to kbox with my bbgs after receiving terrible news during class. Nonetheless we enjoyed the day..so it was not too bad afterall. The best thing is it's freakin cheap! Like $8 per person and one free drink. But sucha pity the new Scape outlet doesn't have this promotion..

Holidays are here and I want to stop procrastinating! But that is impossible so..whatever, let's just hope I'm wrong this time, haha. The sleep-in-the-morning & wake-up-in-the-noon days are back. Welcome.

Tie Dye Cookies

2010-07-29T15:28:00.002+08:00

Awesome turns eighteen

2010-07-26T02:07:00.003+08:00

Needless to say, that day was awesome! Surprised K with a cake we decorated.

Sidetrack: How I miss icing room. Saw Frankie when we went to decorate K's cake and he recognizes me! Still remember how me and Lam thought he was some cranky guy but it turns out to be the total opposite. Work started and all was fine and good until my tolerance level for those *ahem* people kept decreasing so I decided to quit. I mean, yea you like what you're working as but the people around has to be nice too, no? Don't know if that was a good decision but I definitely enjoyed my time while in Icing Room!

K back to topic, had dinner before some drinks. So great to see that K loved the cake. Love you babe, hope you enjoyed the day cuz I did ^^

Food is Good

2010-07-24T05:21:00.002+08:00

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Will update a proper post soon!!

It's very beautiful over there

2010-07-22T01:06:00.010+08:00

I am blocking my dream when I allow my fear to grow bigger than my faith.

What is up, buttercup

2010-07-13T19:31:00.006+08:00

More on facebook

On saturday the boyfriend took me out for shopping and volunteered to pay for everything. So sweet hurrrrr. Didn't buy much from the flb flea so I went off to F21. I think I hate shopping at fleas already cuz everything's so disorganised and looking at them just make me wanna just head to the mall instead.And dinner was sisig. Fuck, if you don't know what that is it's pig's snout + ears + heart etc.. Damn disturbed.

Btw for those who haven't watched Despicable Me go do so now! W and I both regret not watching the 3D one..but oh welllllll

2010-07-07T23:37:00.000+08:00

Bungalow with some strange new friends

2010-07-05T04:56:00.000+08:00

Good morning sweeties, it sucks that I'm always updating this space at this ungodly hour cuz it means I'll be heading straight to school without any sleep, sigh >:(

So the boyfriend is gone again and I met my lovely girls for steamboat at S's crib.

2010-07-01T23:48:00.002+08:00

via lovemetoinfinity

It's almost easy

2010-06-29T07:15:00.002+08:00

♥

K time to sleep. I wonder why is my body clock screwed up even when there's school. Life sucks. And the thunder just scared me, for the first time. Whdapuck. N9ttts, x.

Old yellow bricks

2010-06-28T05:02:00.006+08:00

Just like the good old days where we sit on the rooftop late in the night with melted icecream. Things change, before you even realise it. How sad is that.

Kaaaaay just thought I should just update this space since I'm not intending to sleep before heading to school and there's still some time left before I start preparing. I think I'm curling my hair later! That is if I have enough time though. Sigh, kept wanting to curl my hair myself but never succeeded. Sucks at this kind of things, really. Always screws up in the end >:(

All About Lovin' You

2010-06-28T01:02:00.003+08:00

This is.. so good.

Stolen sweethearts

2010-06-20T05:14:00.002+08:00

Awesomeeeeeeeee, somebody's wall is gonna be filled up soon ♥

2010-06-19T22:10:00.000+08:00

I cannot find my camera's USB cable and it's pissing me off cuz it means no pictures. Why do I always lose my things I thought i saw it on my bed a few days back only?!

It seems the thought of days without you make me sadder

2010-06-13T04:42:00.010+08:00

Before Wilz had his hair all snipped off, hahahaha. Can't wait to have him back on the 23rd ♥

It's the school's two weeks break now anyway, and one week has passed but i haven't done any of the school assignments. Sighzzz, totally no idea when will i stop procrastinating... And i think i should bake in one of these days to spend my time away. Then probably learn how to cook to give W a surprise when he's out! HAHAH wish me luck man..it's cooking. Geez.

Time stands

2010-06-13T04:27:00.008+08:00

Day 6 without Wilson. 9 more days to goooooo ^^

All-time favourite

2010-06-10T06:18:00.003+08:00

I'll crave for hongkong breakfast and I'll be like, "Hey babe wake up. lets go hongkong for breakfast"
then she'll say "Siao ah now what time already. We go ipoh eat noodles la."
then I'll grumble and be like "Wah lao sian. K la k"
We'll text our kids that we'll be back by afternoon and prepare to go over to hongkong for dinner.

I'll go next door and crash into Bing's house like nobody's business and tell him to get his ass up and we go makan breakfast.
"Want call the rest not" he'll say and I'll say "Elvina cannot wake up one. John house no reception"
then LW will probably be out investigating some corpse and wont make it then Chingmay Ky and Jer will be like "Later you late again cheebye" then they go eat prata instead.

Then I'll call Steve to prepare the jet and we'll all go have breakfast. I'll drop my malacca and buy my mom her funny coconut sugar thing and go to the KL twin towers to scare the kids standing on the bridge.

Then I'll go back to the office at like early afternoon have a meeting and then go home, take like a jacket or something and head to the airport at punggol.
Steve would have prepared my jet for a flight to hongkong then me and my family then Bing's jet would probably like next to mine by then.
Elvina might be in either one IF she managed to wake up and john too if he somehow find a place with reception and no cockroaches and after lw is done examining her corpse and eating the instestines of it.

We'll head over to hongkong and then Steve will send my stupid sister over to japan to go watch a concert or something.

After dinner at hongkong we'll go shop a little bit and i'll drop in on the hongkong branch of my company
then the rest will go home after shopping and Steve will send them back to singapore
then i'll probably ask Portabello to send me over to korea where the rest of SLAG will be having kimchi and stuff and I'll be like WHATSUPPPPPPPPPPPPPP
then we'll go some playground and play blind mice then I'll fly the jet back to Singapore since Portabello has to go back to his family in korea (bet you didnt know he's korean).

The next day would probably be the same but instead we'll go to Italy to have pizza for breakfast.
Life's gonna be so fucking awesome."
-Samuel the Awesome King

Why does Time pass so fucking fast when we don't want things to end so soon? I miss last year. Not that this year is bad, in fact this year has been pretty awesome, but I just can't let go of the all the nonsense that had happened in 2009. Actually I miss everything that happened in the past years. It just sucks so bad to know that we can't turn back time no matter what. Memories uh memories..sighhhh.

And looking at Sbf and Lw's posts make me realise something. I have no directions in life. FML

(This post is senseless to alot of y'all I know)

2010-06-09T01:09:00.000+08:00

As promised

2010-06-07T02:52:00.001+08:00

Love u love u love u love u x infinity
plz dont go lehhhhh :(

Jammmmm Mmm

2010-05-29T04:35:00.003+08:00

Pool and monopoly after school with the girls :) Can't deny it was fun not paying the rents and ending up in jail etc.. And S, cheer up plz cuz we all love you!

On the other hand, mid sem's coming but I haven't started on anything. Seriously I have issue I can't stop thinking I have a lot of time, aghhh. Gonna meet S for study session later though ^^ And hopefully nothing crops up last minute again so I can study!! I can't study at home I'll just give up after a few minutes.

Where we could be ourselves

2010-05-28T05:04:00.000+08:00

Babies = ♥

Own up leh

2010-05-26T02:35:00.003+08:00

My hair last time so long so straight WHO ASK ME CUT ONE UH?

2010-05-23T20:39:00.001+08:00

# Basically, I wish that you truly loved me. I wish that you really needed me. I wish that you knew when I said two sugars, actually I meant three. I wish that without me your heart would break. I wish that without me you’d be spending the rest of your nights awake. I wish that without me you couldn’t eat. I wish I was the last thing on your mind before you went to sleep.

Everything else can wait

2010-05-22T05:41:00.003+08:00

I am actually toothless

I think photos from now on will be taken by webcam already cuz lugging my laptop to school is already torturous enough for me & I don't have the strength to bring my camera which isn't too light as well.

Probably someday we'd look back and think

2010-05-17T18:25:00.003+08:00

School today was good despite me heading there with 0% sleep. Was quite surprised at how awake I was..all the way till lunch time. Had popeyes and soon my eyes were closing. Couldn't help falling asleep la apparently cuz my food was digesting or smth? Sry I never took bio and even if I did I probably still wouldn't even know that till now.

Then S and I decided to be gehkiang and proceeded to the library and attempted to finish up our project and later realised we don't have a single clue what was going on so we gave up and waited for the rest. I couldn't sit still cuz I was bored to tears..luckily youcam twitter and fb came to our aid, geez.

Stayed up too late

2010-05-13T22:13:00.001+08:00

2010-05-09T02:47:00.000+08:00

What do I do when lightning strikes me
and I wake up to find that you're not there?

♥

2010-04-27T00:18:00.000+08:00

I miss how I can say a whole lot of ridiculous things, come out with all kinds of random bullshit, express myself with a list of vulgarities and behave in the most absurd ways. I miss being Me. And that's cuz my babies aren't around.

I wanna go back to my comfort zone. Badly.

Break away from something more

2010-04-22T23:39:00.000+08:00

Sooo school started and so far so good.. No tutorials cuz it's the first week of school (Y). However lectures were pretty boring and I couldn't understand a thing, but that's probably cuz I wasn't listening in the first place. Oh nvm. Shall see what I can do about that later.

Meeting my babies tmr (finally) for suki. Shall let myself starve first so I can eat a hell lot when I meet them. It'd always been a waste of money whenever I go for buffets cuz I get full too easily, which isn't a good thing cuz I then get hungry so quickly, sigh.

Then have to go get some stuff for school cuz apparently my lecture notes are all like giam cai since I don't have a file and I just simply stuff them in my bag. I also need more stationary...my pencil case is like some metal tin and it's making a lot of noise cuz it's so empty inside and Van keeps laughing at me. Double sigh!

So not prepared for school.

On a brighter note, NO CLASSES FOR ME TMR ^^

Face up

2010-04-13T05:53:00.002+08:00

"Truth is, everybody's going to hurt you.
You just gotta find the ones worth suffering for."

-Bob Marley

Your eyes were my muse

2010-04-12T04:41:00.007+08:00

Brought my fisheye cam to Genting and only managed to develop them a few days back.. The photos make me wna go back to Genting so badly though there was nothing much we could do over there. But the sweet potato is (Y), esp when it's so cold outdoors. And I wna sit on all the rides again hahaha, spaceshot!!

When we got back to Sg..
Bb cooked for me hahaha yummmm.

Then these are from FLB flea.. The sister had a stall over there so we went to 'help' but instead, shopped,
hehhh.

Magic words

2010-04-09T00:51:00.000+08:00

W's 20th:
Baked him some cookies which I never got to eat any cuz he claims it's all his. SIGHHH. Then we didn't do much in the day till shisha and some alcohol at night with the rest.

2010-04-08T07:22:00.000+08:00

It's probably time to sleep.

No need to die to prove a lie

2010-04-08T07:13:00.000+08:00

Nobody listens

2010-04-06T21:23:00.001+08:00

Back from the short trip to malaysia! Visited my granny at Kulai last Thursday. Haven't seen her for ages.. The last time we went back was like years ago. How sad it is to live alone, sighhh. And I miss the meat balls she make. The nicest meatballs everzzzz.

The next day the father drove us to the hotel he booked in KL. He had some business matters over there while we girls shopped. Only realised that the good stuff were on the upper levels when we were about to head back to singapore, but oh well.. Will go back again sooon. And just one day over in KL is definitely not enough. We had to rush through the shopping, which is so bad. Even had to give up on the body massage to save time for shopping :(

Time in the car was entertaining though. Photobooth with the sister's Macbook.. Had so much fun with the GPS too ha ha haaa that thing is quite retarded. Or maybe it's just us, lol.

I say I'd like you to be mine

2010-03-31T17:26:00.000+08:00

When you've kept it in for way too long

2010-03-28T22:32:00.000+08:00

I was listening to 'Ji De' (dont ask me why) while reading hi5's blogs and I started tearing.What? I am just saddened by the fact that good things never last.

2010-03-28T05:13:00.000+08:00

Fate is an elegant, cold-hearted whore

2010-03-27T03:51:00.006+08:00

Got a new laptop after being too lazy to repair my previous one. So now I suppose it's time I start to blog regularly. Hmmm

Have shitloads of photos to develop and upload. Boring..

2010-03-09T01:06:00.002+08:00

我的心好痛

New faces

2010-03-08T03:49:00.000+08:00

Hi Kohching, please do not attempt to be nocturnal from now on just because of a freakin missed call, silly girl.

Hi limmy, I hope you give me the chance to ask you out to starbucks cuz you need to chill and relax.

Hi S(aaamuel)BF, nb ccb knn time to update me with your jc life/girls. Flat? Hehe.

LLW I got something to tell you so kindly put down your homework for 5 minutes!!

2010-03-08T03:05:00.000+08:00

What can I do to feel nothing

I feel vulgar tonight

2010-03-06T03:46:00.000+08:00

1. I still have two batches of CNY photos yet to be uploaded.

2. 327am now and I have a test at 930 in the morning.

3. Given up on researching without even getting started at all because I am so optimistic I believe the luck that I never had will finally do me some justice.

4. The remote is spoilt and the setup box is so far away so I have to force myself to watch this ridiculous show.

5. I have to travel around the world tomorrow, fuck adult fare.

6. Long awaited getaway is finally arriving but shit just have to happen, motherfuckers of the world.

7. Explaining something to someone who just doesn't have the ability to understand is so frustrating, goddammit.

8. No more yakult.

9. I am still very bothered by the fact that such simple explanation is not understandable.

10. WHY.

On a happier note, I got my fisheye cam! ^^

Hey liar, whatchu doing!

2010-02-27T04:55:00.000+08:00

Have you wondered that by asking that way I might know something?

Guess not.

It could be nothing

2010-02-26T05:29:00.001+08:00

Am on tumblr! Follow me @redvoices.tumblr ^^

A picture speaks a thousand words. Probably that's why I'm spending so much time on tumblr now. Love how I always manage to find pictures which totally speak my mind.

Epic

2010-02-26T03:36:00.002+08:00

CHINGMAY says:
*i hate being a girl.
*like hor, i think we are crazy one lor
*no wonder boys dont understand us

True, true

2010-02-24T08:41:00.000+08:00

"If you're going to love me, love me deeply. If you're going to break my heart, then break it all. If you're going to care, care for me completely. If you decide not to hold me, then just let me fall. If you're going to stay, then stay forever and if you want to leave, then do it today. If you're going to change, change for the better. And if you're going to talk, please mean what you say."

Tehnesaur

2010-02-23T22:57:00.002+08:00

Decorated our own cake!! c:

Very yummy ^^ So fun decorating own cake too plus I worked there (yes with the -ed cuz I decided to quit since it's getting boring, ha) so I get more icing for my cake (Y). Spent a total of 2 hours on the cake we must be siao and couldn't bear to eat it initially but we couldn't stand our hunger so it was gone very soon. Naiseee :>

What about you?

2010-02-16T02:22:00.000+08:00

CNY this year is seriously super boring. Firstly the number of people who gathered at granny's place lessened by quite a number and secondly I didn't have the festive mood at allll. Except for new year eve where new year songs were all over the radio and I couldn't stop singing to it, GHEHHH. Did a last minute shopping AGAIN and I swear swear swear fucking swear I'd never do it again because it sucks balls. Rushed like mcb and still couldn't see anything I like so I had to anyhow zam already

Day One we deliberately went earlier but seems like it was wasted cuz people only started coming in in the noon and the crowed also went off in the noon nb. Made me bored like mad I even fell asleep for some time.

Day Two which is today I had dinner at Gusttimo with bb yummmmzzz and visit at his granny's place after that. Lesson of the day, I need to learn some dialect

Photos soon, can't be bothered to upload/edit now

How's all of yall's CNY, good? BABIES MEET UP LEH K!!

Selling

2010-02-12T22:15:00.008+08:00

SCHWING SCHWING SUEDE HEELS
Fits size 37/38
Worn once, condition 10/10
$45 mailed, negotiable (Got it at $50!)
Or to the highest bid.
Meetup available but to my convenience
Leave a comment or email me at elvina.goh@hotmail.com if interested.
SOLD!!

Time check: 0357

2010-02-08T03:57:00.008+08:00

I miss school. It's weird that this is actually coming out from me but i really miss school. Waking up late almost everyday causing jieen to have to wait for me downstairs, rushing to school and reaching just on time to sing the national anthem and the coolest school song, sitting down for assemblies and complaining that my legs had turned numb, going back to class with lil surprises everyday (sometimes a packet of Ribena from Chingmay, sometimes a box of cookies from Charlene, and lil random notes by my babies etc (L)), texting CM or Sam in class though they're just seats away from me, getting rushed by ching to go to math class, meeting LW in the toilet hahaha what a place to hide, the tomyam seafood noodles opposite school, random cravings during class, updating my (and sometimes ching and charlene's) diary in lessons, letting trains pass by us cuz sam and I just refuse to run and have too much time to spare..

I miss Hi-5. Regret not spending more time with them and it's so disappointing how our post olevel plans never worked out right. Already had a whole full list of to-dos and it's still with Ching if i'm not wrong.

I cannot explain how much I miss all the babies. And I really wonder how my new friends and new school would be like.. Liwei is making me paranoid already haha and stupid jc kid sam is playing with fighting fish alamak and plz be a cool kid and alter your pants

I REALISE HI-5 DON'T HAVE A GROUP PHOTO TOGETHER. CANNOOOOTTTTTT

K two hours of sleep wo lai le

Look your toes are gone

2010-02-08T02:32:00.000+08:00

This whole day I'm stuck with online shopping and that's why it's baaaaaad to stay at home. And I keep managing to convince myself with 'School is starting it's absolutely fine to get more clothes. Or rather, it's a must bcuz you don't wna go to school wearing the same thing all over again.'. Nooooooo this is no good

Today I bought a whole bag of junk food planning to camp at home and eat them up but I clumsily left them in bb's hands before getting up the bus so now it's all gone _|_ and i'm hungry. Got a big fat juicy ulcer which makes me an angsty girl now.

I see unfamiliar names coming out - that's life. This is a phase everyone will go through, gotta get over it!

Finally a New Year Resolution ^^

2010-02-07T20:20:00.002+08:00

By the way I have finally decided to brave and announce my new year resolution. Have been wondering if I should really resolve to do this cuz there's veryyyy high chance I can't do it but I should spare a thought for all my darlings right, and this is because my resolution is to......

NOT BE LATE.

Hey have faith in me can?! LOVE LA.

At times this is so impossible

2010-02-07T20:14:00.000+08:00

Busy busy! Work is fine, and i think it's rather fun^^ Will be moving to the new outlet tomorrow, less traveling time = more sleep (Y). Lam let's monopolize the new outlet HA.

Anyway I'm starting to believe that things are all planned for us. The outcome may not be what we expect but it might be the best, well who knows. Let's just keep our fingers crossed..& learn to accept.

Waiting for my dinner now, haven't stayed home for the whole day for quite some time already I realise.

How much sense can you make at 5 in the morning

2010-02-04T05:47:00.000+08:00

I am sick again why am I always sick and the biggest problem now is why am I awake at this hour when I am sick plus I am in this very uncomfortable position cuz I'm using the lappy on my bed and it's causing my neck to kind of become stiff ha.ha.ha. my sorethroat disappeared all of a sudden I have no idea why and dont bother to as long as it's gone but my flu is getting worse and I am stuffing myself with tic-tac yeas no link so I am going to sleep already byez

In everyone

2010-02-04T05:41:00.009+08:00

What would you do if you've been married to a guy/girl for 50 years and one day you wake up and you hear him telling you that he's sick of you?

Otherwise, is it love, responsibility or simply very used to it?